Reality

I woke up at about 3 am the other night freaking out because B was asking for food and I forgot. She had come into our room hungry and I fell back asleep. Hungry means shes low and she does a lot of that at night. But then, I wasnt SURE she had come in. Why would I have told her to check her sugar in the middle of the night? Maybe I was dreaming. I had to wake Nathan up because I was so out of it and I could not tell what was real and what was a dream. We decided that I had dreamt it, and her sugar was fine so we didnt wake her.

Maybe thats a sign you are eexhausted? I dont think I've slept more than 2 hours at a time in the past month. Its really probabley more like the past 10 months, since I got pregnant. but whos counting?

I get T to sleep at about 11 and usually pass out right after him. I check B's sugar before I do, then set an alarm for 2-3 hour intervals throughout the night. Depending on her previous reading I may or may not check it at the next alarm. I always check at 4am when I'm up nursing T and may check it at 6 if she  was below 150. 

I hear this is normal and will continue.... the getting up. The endocrinologist doesnt seem to feel the need to check so often, but when I've seen her sugar plummet 100 points in an hour... and it really does threaten her life if it gets too low... I'm going to check it.

I'm driving Nate crazy. I talk to him about the indiocincracities ( is tht right?) of her body and its responses non stop. I'm still learning, because I've never needed to be involvd this deeply in his own care. And when I'm learning, I talk things to death. He ought to be used to it though, at least its not carseats, right? lol