changes....

Several weeks ago we discovered that Baby Boy is allergic to dairy. Not lactose intolerant, but actually allergic to dairy protein, which according the Bellas allergist isn't so much an allergy but a toxic reaction.  Sounds lovely, doesn't it? Luckily we found a brilliant breastfeeding specialist who explained it all to me and wah-la! Mom goes dairy free, Baby Boy feels better. Mom was STARVING!

But after a few days of nothing but pb&j and animal crackers ( thats all we had that I could find without dairy in it) I started to figure it out. Ya know, after a few says with butter, and sauces and cheese and gravy..... you learn how delicious food really is. Like shrimp with fresh homemade salsa and fresh cilantro and black beans and fresh squeezed lime juice.... I'm making myself hungry! That is probably my favorite meal ever.

I eventually had to give up red meat because the bovine protein the meat was still upsetting his system,  By then I was watching documentaries on healthy eating, juicing/green smoothies, all that crazy stuff. Basically drinking the kool-aid.

Since then, Ive given up dairy and red meat,  I'm working on cutting out chicken  and pork. Although I plan to still have shrimp and some fish. Mostly just shrimp I'm not a big fish person. I'm making my own fruit and veggie juices with lots of green stuff that tastes like grass. lol And cooking things like vegetarian pasta, and eggplant.

Baby boy is getting better and better each day. Did I mention he is 4 1/2 months old and he is SITTING UP!  I'm terrified, hes going to be driving next Wednesday.

And amazingly, the junk food junkie, eats out WAY too much momma... Shes down 10lbs already and feeling so much better. I even got a bike, yes a bright pepto bismol pink bike with a baby trailer.  I'll be THAT mom, lol.

Relief!

So excited! We got the Endo to agree to a pump ( just need to practice mastering the correction factor for a couple of weeks) and Bellas A1C was down from a 9.7 at diagnoses to a 7.5! Which is exactly where the want a child her age! Feeling so much better, we are doing exactly what we need to be doing and I think her next appointment in a few months will be even better! Not because of the pump but just learning more about her body and incorporating a better diet for everyone in the house! When mom goes dairy and meat free is changes EVERYONES diet! As soon as the junk is gone it is never coming back in.... well except maybe some oreos. lol

Its been...... a DAY.

Not a bad day, not a good one.  And well its really hasnt been an actual day, its been weeks. 

We went to Camp Kandu, a day long camp for kiddos with T1D. It was awesome, but man, it was exhausting! B was able to kick us parents to the curb and run all over the place with a flurry of other kids, and adults who are also diabetic. I still dont think she has realized that last part. That every kid there ( for the most part)  was just like her. T wasnt very cooperative,but that might be asking a bit much for a 3month old. Hopefully in the fall he will be a little less demanding.

I really dont have much to say, tomorrow is Mothers day.... can I just stay in bed all day, nurse the baby when needed and only crawl out of bed at dinner to find a clean house? :)  That right therr is every moms dream!

BTW- who the hell in Russia is reading this thing?

Just 2 more weeks.

The school did it again. I dropped B off and I am told they are having SMORES as a special treat.

REALLY?  Like, seriously.... WHOLE schools are peanut free due to allergies. We cant find a freaking activity that doesn't require a shitload of sugary food for the class with the diabetic?

I honestly wonder if that doesn't count as discrimination? At the very least its mean and rude. While her class made and ate smores, Bella had her snack in the directors office and read a book.

That really pisses me off. 

Guess what!

Trace is 11 weeks old ( gosh, is that ALL?)  and he weighs about 14lbs. EXCLUSIVELY breastfed, that is some GOOD milk! :)

And I have lost 33lbs since he was born. Now, you  might not think thats much but I only gained 17 or so pounds during my entire pregnancy! So I weigh less NOW than I did when I got pregnant. Yay me!

I dont claim to know what I'm doing....

But I let the 5yo eat whatever she wanted the other day and she didnt need any Humolog all day and her numbers stayed in range all day too. Of course the next day we went back tot he normal forcing carbs and pushing insulin and BAM! 375! WTF?

I really wish we could adjust things so that she could eat normally and we could dose insulin according to her diet rather than give her X amount of insulin and force XX amount of carbs to compensate for the insulin.

45 carbs is easy some times... say a ham sandwich ( 27 carbs) and some cheeseits (17carbs) , throw in a string cheese and some water or crystal light and you are good to go. Easy 45 carb lunch that a 5 yo will eat. But dinner, of say a chicken breast (0) and green beans( 10) and rice ( 35) isnt hard either until you are fussing at your kid to eat the CUP of rice required to get those numbers and ignoring the chicken on her plate. That will never sit well with me. Why cant we have less insulin and a normal 1/4-1/2 cup of rice?

Whats really odd is that the night she had no insulin( well, she had her Lantus)  her numbers were EXCELLENT... 150-100 , she only  dropped to just under 70 in the early morning hours.  But the night when we push carbs and insulin we have to pump her up to 250+ to get her high enough because she crashes between 4-6am. ( Side note- I wish we had an alert dog. Granna- that does not mean to go buy one!)

It would be awesome to sleep instead of check her every 2-3 hours throughout the night.

On the other end, Mr. Man is getting huge! ( was he ever small?) Hes smiling and starting to laugh, jabbering a good bit and he has the CUTEST little diapered butt! See!

I just started cloth diapering this past week! Love it and I'm thoroughly obsessed now!

nothing but a negative

some people will get it.

I never know what to say when something bad happens. i dont cry, i dont break down. i go into action, brick walls go up to distance to distance myself from the situation. no i dont cry, if I ever start....well, i wouldnt want to be around.


In all of the blogs and posts Ive read from over D parents, moms talk about the hate they have for diabetes. I dont get it.

I dont HATE diabetes. diabetes is not a thing... diabetes is a lack of proper function. the absence of function actually.... diabetes is a negative, therefore it cannot win, because it is nothing.  the only weapon diabetes has is a lack of control. well, guess what... I'm a control freak.

challenge accepted.You can try to haunt every member of my family, but I will control you into submission.