Just a ticked off rant

This is me pounding my head against a brick wall. I need to go to medical school to understand this. Why is it unsafe to give a live virus flu shot to a T1, but you CAN give them a live virus MMR shot  full of egg that the kid is allergic to?  Is it because I'm sacrificing my child for the "greater good" ? This child is the definition of why we need herd immunity but by damn, I'm not about to torture her and over load her already beat up little body. I hated them the first time around, I knew it, every time they wanted to pump her full of chemicals  and 'dead viruses'... I never was okay with it. You can argue with me all you want, you can spew all the "data" and tell me I'm crazy, but my mom gut will always tell me that the ton of vaccines they threw at her a year before her diagnoses is what kick started the immune response, hell, maybe it was earlier, but there is evidence that kids with  a genetic predisposition to T1 do have an increased risk of developing on top of the risks associated with the vaccines, and once again argue all you want, go read the fine print.

This isnt supposed to be a rant on Vaxing, but just the idiocy of this idiot states laws. I have documentation that my child has a level three reaction to egg....  thats pretty freaking bad. Poor things face swelled up, eyes swelled shut, rash all over her face thankfully we caught it before her airway and mouth swelled up.... we carry an epi pen and they will also give steroids to stop the reaction... guess what steroids do to a diabetic?  Blood Sugar, thru the roof. Fun times. because on top of being an itchy, swollen mess you can also be so thirsty you will drink just about anything, and have to pee every 5 minutes and eat everything in sight, which only makes you feel worse. Fun times for a FIVE YEAR OLD.

This kid is one of the thousands if not millions of reasons that we need herd immunity. Look, I hate these things, I hate that they arent safe( if you think so you are crazy) and I hate that we need them, ( and I am so incredibly grateful for the parents who do vaccinate without question) But its not  a deadly case of measles and its not polio and seriously I would give her the damn shot myself if I were faced with an outbreak.  But we aren't, at least not today, so instead I get to keep arguing with these people who are looking at a piece of paper and not my kid... the one with the perma dark circles under her eyes and the callused, pin hole ridden finger tips that really has had a crappy year and just needs a break, not more shit to deal with.

And now that Mount Everest is sitting here on my chest and the brick wall isnt quite so hidden I'm going to shut up and go pretend everything is ok and we are handling shit. Cause thats what we do.... but can SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME WHY  A LIVE MMR VACCINE IS OK  WHEN THE FLU ISNT?!?!?!?!?!